Thursday, November 12, 2009
it's not that i'm upset, i'm just... not too happy.
about what? about life.
i don't know, it's just sort of like... i can't see things completely. as in i only see one portion of it, then i lose view of the whole thing.
忍一时，风平浪静。
退一步，海阔天空。
it's the second phrase which really affected me.
as in to see in it's entirety, you have to step back. and look at it in a whole new, completely different perspective. and think to yourself that it's great. i guess life is really just a bundle of emotions, and it's up to you which ones you pick, really.
so i finally decided not to forget. I WILL/MUST REMEMBER. i won't ever forget, i think, especially, ahem, when it's my _____(5 letter) _________(9 letter).
ARGH TODAY WAS TOTALLY I-WILL-KILL-YOU-ISH.
first. I WILL KILL KAIYAN. for reasons i know you know too. shall not elaborate.
second. XIAOYUN >< gah i dislike you. today was totally... unnecessary. yes, she saw us, we saw her, and etc, BUT YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO DO THAT. really. and astonishingly creepy, if i may say so.
Darn.
I don't understand why.
I always feel extra, spare, excessive, unneeded, expendable.
everything is crashing down on me.
life is crashing down on me.
I need only one word to describe it all, DAMN.
天无绝人之路
一回生二回熟
i have to agree with these. it's true, because, well, it just is.
it kind of reflects what i'm feeling now, you know?
okay so maybe you don't but never mind.
Posted at 5:56 PM
