Friday, January 6, 2012
忘掉有过的家
You know, ninety nine times out of a hundred I analyse other people but never myself.
So I suppose is I had a new year's resolution, it'd be to know myself better. So it's not my true self, per se, but it's better than nothing and I swear I have three different personalities or something. Which I have actually given names to. Clarice, Gianna, and Cassidy, named after characters I have written.
Okay, to start on that resolution, I find that sometimes I dislike people's companies (and this is either Clarice or Gianna speaking right now) and perhaps that is because I either truly hate people (which is improbable but I somehow think is the truth in my case, sometimes) or I'm just attention-seeking in a very convoluted way (which is more likely, but I just dislike people). So I'd rather think it's the first.
And of course, the next question would again be "why?" So damn, I can bet you the cause of it is a fear because it almost always is. It's like, in the nature of humans to have everything stem from a fear. Also, I swear it's difficult to read yourself precisely because you can't observe yourself. And you can't make out your own habits and describe yourself. Unless you look at yourself in the mirror, and observe what you always do, but then they won't be habits because it's perfectly natural to feel self-conscious when observing yourself and then you'll stifle your own actions and therefore it won't be right.
Okay, apparently I make it sound like an art or something.
And apparently being able to read people in this way is scary, according to Hui Lin ._.
Ahwell.
Posted at 12:00 AM
