Thursday, August 1, 2013
The dogs that follow you, do they howl?
真正属于自己的东西是不用去争去抢。
There are too many things to see. Too many things to do. Sometimes... I just don't want to have to say a single word.
You know, the world works in funny ways. I found out something that I had guessed before but now because of that, I don't want to know. I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to see you hurt.
That would hurt me more than you could ever imagine.
Because despite however much I wish I didn't, I do care about you. Too much for my own good. So much that I am getting affected and no, that's not a good thing. And I think that is something you used to see but evidently not now. Not anymore. I don't want to, not literally, break my own heart. That's stupid.
"Stupid things are thing you ought not to do."
In retrospect though, it was so obvious I should have seen it and you had practically told me. Hindsight is 20/20. I'm not saying it now because I don't want that to tear us apart.
I'll just continue smiling that knowing smile that gets on your nerves so much. This, I hope, will be some semblance of a normal world for you. Don't get me wrong, I don't like you in that way. I just... treasure this odd fellowship too much to see it burn and drift. And I have been there for you. I hope you'll still see me as someone you can talk to, someone you don't mind sharing your mind with, someone... you can trust, because that's how it used to be, that's how we used to be.
These are days I hope will soon be over. I too want to regain a sense of normalcy.
I'm sorry.
Posted at 4:58 PM
