Monday, August 17, 2020
念橋邊紅藥
It's been a while, hasn't it?
Since the last time I've posted here I've finished my bachelor's degree and started on the next step of my journey. Which is a PhD candidature. In fact, I've gone from halfway through an undergraduate degree to a quarter of a way into a PhD.
Life works in strange ways. I look back at this blog and acknowledge that, years ago, I wouldn't have thought that I would/could ever do a PhD in this area. These days I still don't know why I'm doing it at times, but it sure is harder to remain incredulous in the face of having to drag myself to lab everyday. Not that I feel any more deserving.
In between the last time and now I've done a few things, like... going to see flowers bloom again.
Some things don't change I guess.
I'm not sure what to make of the past 2.5? 3? years. The last half a year (start of 2020 to now, really) have been in a sort of limbo where I've just been living day to day on an arbitrary deadline. As one does. In the event of a pandemic. That's fine. Before that it just felt like... usual I guess? Getting to study, and study more, is just. What it is. What it's always been.
I have 3 more years to go. Maybe after those 3 years I'll come back here a nervous wreck, and read this post thinking to myself "man I was so idealistic" or something, you know? But for now... my hopes are up. As they should be, really, or I wouldn't be doing this.
Posted at 8:57 PM
