Monday, June 27, 2011
即使未曾如何嚐百味 然而這樣也是完美 真心奉獻全意地
Well, this is when they say "better me than them" comes in.
And yes ex-staff this is when I'm actually talking about posts! And trust me, the others would feel worse without the posts than I do right now, because well, right now I have a lot more things on my mind. And also I will get/am getting over it because I don't even think I deserved it in the first place, they were better than me. Don't feel bad for me! Really! (Only because xiaoyun told me you saw that and thought it was about that [and I realized I don't have you on MSN!], so I read through and realized it does sound like it's about that, but it isn't. Really. It's just the stress getting to me, I think.)
No, the previous post was not about posts. It was about, well, things in general.
...I feel like platoonmates are avoiding me/are more distant than ever. And no, it's not just me kaiyan. Well, what else can I say about this?
Right now I feel like slapping a lot of people and crying because SCREW THEM ALL I DO NOT HAVE 48 HOURS IN A DAY.
So I suppose I should thank the people who've been listening to me rambling and cracking up and breaking down and everything these few days. Talking to y'all made me feel a lot better, really. So yeah, thanks! I think you've been really great people and yeah thanks for listening and understanding my grouching and stuff. And yes, various people on various matters, and don't take this the wrong way, not posts.
Because I swear I somehow manage to make everything sound like it's about posts._.
But really, it's not.
REALLY.
I can almost imagine some people giving me the *rightttt* look now.
Believe it or not.
OH WOW I JUST LAUGHED AT SOMETHING REALLY RETARDED.
Okay so maybe it's not exactly retarded but hey it's amusing. And rather hilarious. REALLY WHO USES _____ _________?! Not that I have anything against it, but it really is rather. Awkward to use. Well, so maybe some people are just weird.
Spam downloaded TVB themesongs. The older ones are awesome.
Also, can't help but like
this come on it is Leo Ku! And features Nancy Wu! And Love and Honesty is a pretty awesome title!
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Posted at 10:24 PM
Friday, February 11, 2011
And it really doesn't matter that we don't eat
HAHA OMG.
http://ncc.org.sg/ncc/images/stories/Newsletter/P1-12_NCC_Feb-Mar_v2.pdf and go look at page three then scroll down and see who contributed it HAHAHAHAHHA SHIT I THINK OF YOONSHAN AND LUCY AND QUEK AT FREESTYLE.
Okay, anyway.
Tomorrow is freestyle I will try not to die because I think I may have pulled my shoulder muscles cos they hurt like hell.
Also, that newsletter contains a hell lot of random recognisable names because SERIOUSLY how random!
Labels: CCA
Posted at 9:51 PM
Monday, February 7, 2011
I listen to the radio, All the songs we used to know
Begin the day with a friendly voice, a companion unobtrusive
Plays that song that's so elusive
And the magic music makes your morning mood.
Off on your way, hit the open road
There is magic at your fingers
For the spirit ever lingers -
Undemanding contact in your happy solitude
Invisible airwaves crackle with life
Bright antenae bristle with the energy
Emotional feedback, on timeless wavelength
Bearing a gift beyond price - almost free
All this machinery making modern music
Can still be open-hearted
Not so coldly charted; it's really just a question of your honesty.
One likes to believe in the freedom of music
But glittering prizes and endless compromises shatter the illusion of integrity
Invisible airwaves crackle with life
Bright antenae bristle with the energy
Emotional feedback, on timeless wavelength
Bearing a gift beyond price - almost free
"For the words of the profits were written on the studio wall and concert hall
And echoes with the sound of salesmen."
Today, was epic. Because. I was chatting with this guy (or girl, I don't know) on omegle about marvel comics.
And he/she went like "Do you read X-Men?" So I told him/her yes, and asked which was his/her favourite story arc, and his/her favourite characters.
And he/she told me Wolvie, Scott and Betsy, and they loved the Planet X storyline. It was pretty amusing because, really, Wolvie, Scott and Betsy? They're all so different! And then they asked me the same questions, so I said Emma, Ororo and Raven Darkholme, plus I think the Phoenix story arcs and Divided We Stand are good. So this person was like, Emma, Ororo, and Mystique?! And I went "yup." Gosh, it was so funny when it actually happened. I'm a terrible narrator.
And yes, ruitong, you should never say anything you don't mean in front of me. Or behind, for that matter.
ALSO, ZOO ANIMALS ♥♥. And yes, I do have a reason for saying that.
As a footnote for staff if you're reading this (I have reason to think that you are, by the way), THEY SAID IT WAS CATERPILLAR CRAWL, AND NEVER MENTIONED WORM. ._. But anyway the point is that even if it is phased out, it still did/does exist. JEEZ.
Labels: CCA, RGS, songs
Posted at 9:43 PM
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
And everyday I pay that price, everyday I'm walking on ice
Close the door
Shut the world away
All the fight's gone from this wounded heart
Across the floor
Dreams and shadows play
Like wind blown refugees
Call the man
Who deals in love beyond repair
He can heal the world
Of hearts in need of care
Shine a light ahead
When the next step is unclear
Call the man
He's needed here
I close my eyes
I remember when
Your sweet love filled this empty room
The tears I cry
Won't bring it back again
Unless the lonely star should fall
Call the man
Who deals in love beyond repair
He can heal the world
Of hearts in need of care
Shine a light ahead
When the next step is unclear
Call the man
He's needed here
Needed in the chaos and confusion
From the plains to city hall
Needed where the proud who walk the wire are set to fall
Call the man
Who deals in once upon a time
Maybe he
Can mend this broken heart of mine
Shine a light ahead
Now the future isn't clear
Call the man
He's needed here
Call the man
He's needed here
He's needed here
He's needed here
Call the man
He's needed here
Right here right now
Call the Man, Celine Dion.
Okay today was ORD. What am I supposed to say? Well, it was shorter than last year's. And I actually paid attention to the speeches so it kind of took my mind away from the sore feet. And yeah we cracked a lot of 'facebook' jokes and it was just weird. And then they started telling us stuff and crying and I guess the only motivation for not really crying was last year (Mr Chia saying 'This is a day of celebration!') and being strong for your platoonmates. And then at the end I gave Ashlynna a ride home! And yeah! I'm not really in an appropriate mood to type it all out though, so you'll have to make do with this post. Also I'm going to go off-topic and say that Siobhan Maher has amazing blue eyes, they're like blue ice. ALSO THEY FINALLY HAD THE SENSE TO PUT THE ALGAEMON IN OUR CLASS TRAYS, :D.
Labels: CCA, songs
Posted at 9:28 PM
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Now drive me far away, away, away
I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be associated with you guys. I am annoyed at us.
Seriously, AB4, pull your socks up. Did you even think that maybe we're not doing as well as you guys want us to think and they're just trying to help people like you see that? I want to know what you're thinking. Correct that, I don't think I even want to know. I don't want to know what you guys are thinking. That is, everyone in general. Sometimes I think you guys really aren't taking things seriously. I really shouldn't be feeling like this, but sometimes I really don't want to be associated with you guys. I mean, ever since this year, I've felt more separated from the rest. I thought it was pretty obvious, so I tried to hide it. I could tell I was failing miserably. Couldn't you tell, at least? I don't want to say this out loud. Did you ever consider how we, the rest of us, felt? Did you for once stop and think that maybe what you think isn't what the rest of the platoon thinks? Did you for once do and clear up your own work? Your own initiatives? I'm not addressing this to anyone specifically but everytime we have platoon stuff this is just what runs through my head. I know maybe it seems that everyone's just looking down on us but maybe that's not true. If all this isn't going to change then I'm really going to brush my hands off this matter. If it's only a few people holding the string together then what's the point in having a platoon? If you guys think that your 'cliques' are very 'open' then I'm sorry to tell you that, as an 'individual', no, I don't think so. But honestly, can you tell us why you just had to do that?
I hope you don't feel offended saying this, but I think you guys are just acting idiotically. Platoon spirit =/= doing every single retarded thing together. I accept the fact that if we want to be a bonded platoon we have to be all together, but doing immature, foolish things together may not exactly be the best thing. Also, everytime I try to add in my part you shrug it off and say it doesn't matter. Only your input does. Well, I'm just trying to give my opinion. Fine, it's just an opinion. When you get into trouble because of it, though, you cause us all to fall. Did you ever think that maybe you're not the best person to do this? If you're going to be doing the same thing all the time, then I apologize for saying this but I'm ashamed and don't want to be associated with you. I don't want to be known as your platoonmate. I don't want to be called who-and-who-and-who-and-who-and-who et cetera's platoonmate. I'm just saying this, but I'm not proud of having known you guys at all. Just because you didn't want to do a good job at first, leaves us to try to help you change it. Then you won't let us. Then we get scolded because for a 'platoon effort', it's bad. Sue me if I'm just trying to make you see that maybe your opinion isn't majority. Or if it is, it may not be the best.
I think yesterday was bad. I wanted to just break down and scream and tell everyone that it's NOT ALRIGHT AND CAN'T THEY JUST SEE IT FROM OUR POINT OF VIEW. I felt so embarrassed for them. It's like, they don't even know. They don't even know how some of us feel. I would like to say that our platoon is amazingly close and everything. Operative words, 'would like to'. So it's like, smile! If they nothing to say, then pretend that there's nothing to say too! It's killing me inside. I've started to accept this since the start of this entire crap thing. Also, I just reread all my journals and diaries. I realized that I've known it would turn out this way a long time ago, only that I kept on denying it. I realized that so many little things have happened that showed me how all these things would end up. I feel disgusted at myself. I should have known better. Even after all we've been through together, we're still... separate. It's not that I expect everyone to be exactly the same, everyone to be exactly good friends with each other, but I think that an effort should at least be made. I don't think you guys are making that effort. If you guys are still thinking that after all our platoon has been through, which is a whole lot, and we're not bonded, it means that what you're trying to get us to do in order to be 'bonded' isn't working, obviously.
This is ridiculously stupid. You're just... taking us when you need us and when your 'friends' come along you just dump us. Well, I'd like you to know that friendship is a two way thing. I'm sorry that you don't realize that you do need to spend time in order to keep this relationship going. I know there're people you'd rather spend your time with. Can you at least tell me if you want to keep this friendship? If you don't, then I won't bother anymore. It's like, you just expect us to be there when you need us. We're secondary. Fine, have it that way. I don't really care much anymore. The thing is, you don't even treat us as secondary. We're invisible. You can just dismiss us with one sentence and call us back when you need us. When we need you, you ignore us. This is getting a little personal, so yeah.
I want to just lie down and wash my hands off all this and die. Sometimes I'm not glad that I'm alive. I want to be free.
Well, forgive me if this post comes off as really pissed off but that's just how I'm feeling now so live with it.
Labels: CCA
Posted at 10:28 PM
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
stupid blogger.
AHH THE SUPID BLOGGER CAN'T POST PICTURES IN SAFARI. :/
i'm so sorry phyllis i forgot you ahhhhhhhhhh. D:
yesterday was uh very intriguing. that's the exact same word i used in response to zhiru's question. why do they all recognise me.
it was battle trail. yesterday, i mean. and then we got to skip half of chinese and math and history but compensated for it with 5 hours of what i kind of learnt in P4. pfft. and then during battle trail these idiotic guys from other schools were like trying to catch our attention but our entire half-a-platoon just daoed them haha. and we reached the cenotaph faster than them. :D we started at fort canning, you know, the battle box? and then to YMCA then cathay then singapore art museum which is the old SJI then civilian war memorial then city hall then victoria concert hall then the fullerton then lim bo seng memorial and then cenotaph and i'm sure i missed out some places but never mind.
kind of like the amazing race in P4, but the thing was hopelessly easier. they gave you a map plus tell you where to go. xiaoyun and i were mainly the ones doing the quiz, and it was pathetically easy. i think. and at the civilian war memorial it was so retarded because they kept on saying the four chopsticks and it sounds horrible. at lim bo seng it was even worse because the guy in charge of our half-a-platoon kept on saying where is lim bo seng now and i kept saying dead and chewy and zerlina kept on whiny and etc.
then back at school in class i saw huiyi after malay in our class and she totally dao us and we dao her also. and then mira and xiaoyun and i took same bus as nadra and then she was asking us where we lived and we were like.
mira says near raffles town club
i say near old ford factory
xiaoyun says choa chu kang
nadra says i live there too!
and then apparently they got off at the same stop.
PS YES I SO KNOW IT WAS FUN LAH.
HAHA BYE GOODNIGHT PPL
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Posted at 10:14 PM
Monday, August 24, 2009
presents.
ahaha!
Today after school there was no CCA, so we made PRESENTS FOR JASLYN AND HUIYI. Orange and pink respectively. I'm not telling you what it is, only the colours! Then we took a lot of pictures, and no one caught us, even though we were so near the teaching blocks, haha!
We also spray painted the presents! We cut out shapes them spray painted over them so it looks SUPER COOL :D The spray paint got on our fingers and as I was the only one with clean hands,well, relatively cleaner, I helped Phyllis take the pictures. Silverish black hands they are.
And then we walked about the school showing off the presents.
Jaslyn's one is black on orange, and it looks "halloween-ish". Quote Rui Tong.
HuiYi's looks like, uh, how do you describe silver on pink?
Anyway we were parading them and Rui Tong and I got the back of our pinafores super dirty and messed up.
And then tomorrow will be our, uh, BATTLE TRAIL! Black NCC shirt + standardised track pants. Okay never mind listen to me randomly ranting. Hey that's alliteration.
I MISS THEM LIKE HECK ARGH HOW.
I FEEL CRAZY OVER THE PART DS.
WHYWHYWHY did they have to go now.
Today was actually the best day ever since the start of the year. Actually, ORD. Platoonmates (Chewy, Shing, Jallene, Xiao Yun, Vanessa, Kai Yan, Rui Tong) and I actually had a really good time. Thanks, you people.
Oh I won't post anymore because then I will be revealing the SECRET (:
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Posted at 9:23 PM
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
WHOO AWESOME ME :D
ohkay i haven't updated in a month. oops D: sorry people [but no one even reads my blog so why am i apologizing?!]
NCC DAY IS ON 1st JULY OHNO IT'S RIGHT AFTER CAMP FEAST.
Which really isn't helping.
Our No. 3 might still be in the wash!
so now i shall blog in [hopefully] backwards chronological order. if i remember, that is.
i shall start from today!
Bluh we practiced for NCC DAY! which means salutes and a different keluar baris D:
AND we needed to do other random stuff like stand there absolutely still (no adjusting!) for 10 - 20 minutes coz of a SPEECH. ><>
We did company drills today. Amanda and Celeste and Tiffany were the I/Cs. A few funny incidents:
Celeste: Is she [a.k.a. me] taller than Cheryl [a Part D]?
Tiffany: Let me see.
Amanda: I think so.
Tiffany: No her [me again] hair is just taller than Cheryl's.
Then the entire company heard and started laughing.
Amanda: I think same height.
Another incident:
Celeste: Wait I thought she [me again!] was standing to the right of the Part B?
Tiffany: Move her to the right.
Just to make a few things clear, they don't even know my name. So they say "she". Bluh.
And another one!
Amanda: I thought she was over there?
Tiffany: Yah how come suddenly change position?
Celeste: Move her to the right.
Tiffany: Who cares anyway they're going to label "satu" and "dua".
Haha :)
Apparently I shall state some random order of height.
Hui Yi is the tallest.
Then Stephania.
Then Kathryn.
Then Rebecca.
Then Ee Wen.
Then Jaslyn.
Then that's all I can remember.
and Vivian is like the tallest Part A.
and then Vivian's angel is Vivian who is also in NCC Air.
so everytime we do "yang thingy" with the Part Bs Vivian ends up marching beside Vivian. LOL
then on monday which is like the 18th
Anne's birthday!
Alanna's birthday!
Yeah it was just after our camp :) which was on friday (15th) to sunday (17th)
So now i shall talk about the camp
It sucked. get this clear: IT ABSOLUTELY SUCKED
17th May:
We did company drills.
First time doing. It was honestly damn fun.
THEN WERE DISMISSED EARLY WHOO :)
Jaslyn and Hui Yi were like:
Jaslyn: You want to do water cheer?
Hui Yi: Anything.
Jaslyn (to us): You want to do water cheer?
Us: No staff.
Hui Yi: Part As answer properly!
Us: No staff.
Then they turned around and started giggling. Then Jaslyn asked us again.
Us: No staff.
Hui Yi: You're supposed to say yes.
Us: Then why do you even ask us?
People start laughing here.
Jaslyn: Anyway do you know how to do or not?
Us: No.
Jaslyn: Forget it then.
every 2nd and 3rd sergeant got promoted to 1st sergeant.
they were like marching really weirdly.
like even the Part Bs were commenting on how they swung up their arms REALLY HIGH.
which means more than 90 degrees.
which means WEIRD.
and Ms Ha was the only person not wearing formal attire.
LOL it looked so funny!
16th May:
LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of tests.
including:
IFC practical
IFC theory
Total Defence test
Air Syllabus
General NCC knowledge
You know what? The total defence and the general NCC knowledge was SO LAME.
it went like:
"1)List the 5 aspects of total defence:
a)_________
b)_________
c)_________
d)_________
e)_________
2)Give examples of the 5 aspects? or something like that.
a) military
___________________
b) social
___________________
c) civil
___________________
d) economic
___________________
e) psychological
___________________"
Like can you believe it?
They asked the question and like practically gave us the answers.
and then for the General NCC knowledge thing it was crazily stupid lah.
like:
"When was NCC setup?"
and the answer was like on our water bottles!
So i shall continue.
15th May:
BUNK INSPECTION.
WE SPENT 2 FREAKING HOURS ON IT
amanda and tiffany and jaslyn and hui yi were busy scolding us for our horrible bunks which was, in fact, the freaking 206 classroom. and it was way dirty D: CRAP 206!
they made us clean it for them like the OHP which had YEARS and LAYERS of dirt on it.
And it was like they made us do about 50 to 60 pushups just because of it?! now we still owe them about 300++ pushups. including those today. which is about 50 today that is. because of NAPFA.
TEST PAPERS RESULTS!
BIO: 49/60 which is 81 two-third %
yeah that's the only one i can remember. so.
know what? the last post on our NCC Air blog is a cheer "training to be soldiers". posted by celeste. yes we actually have a freaking BLOG?! that's probably what you're thinking right now.
YES EXAMS ARE OVER!
CAN WATCH TV AND USE COMPUTER [FREELY]!
even though i do those during exam period anyway.
SHERMINE! I ROCK! ^w^ (copied from anne. THE SMILEY I MEAN.)
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Posted at 8:29 PM
